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Chatmonchy - 夕日哀愁風車

I can’t escape, I can’t escape
Idle mindedly each day passes by
I couldn’t be alone, I couldn’t express my feelings
Afraid and sad, I feel I can’t go on anymore
Can I go on living properly?
Will I become a proper adult?
Even if I want to ask someone, I can’t express it in words
I wonder what dreams are?
Can I go on walking properly?
Can I grow to be a proper adult?
Where did my optimistic self go?
I want to return to the past
The feeling of security, that somebody is beside you
Even when I become an adult, I want that feeling forever
Even if I have doubts and cry
Wipe away my tears, I can keep going
That’s the sort of strong person I want to become

Okay, I’m overwhelmed by how much this song describes how I feel. Every single word. I just had to post it. It’s like Chatmonchy abducted me, stole my thoughts, and used it for this song. I have a journal notebook thing that I write in every day and record all of my personal thoughts. Not to long ago I wrote pretty much these lyrics spanned out onto 3 pages of my less poetic emotional rambling. I can’t describe how much better I feel hearing this song and knowing Eriko had the same exact feelings at some point.

I’d like to add something else. It was my Japanese friend Ryo who got me into Chamonhcy about 3 years ago. They were his favorite band and I became obsessed with them shortly after he introduced me to them. When he showed me this song, he said that it described his feelings so well. At the time he was 18, I was 15. At first I didn’t really feel the same way as he did. I liked the song but the lyrics didn’t mean anything special to me. Now I understand so well how he felt. It’s kind of funny. Here I am, 18 years old now myself, and writing about how much this song describes my feelings.




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